another one of those reflections...

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Finally got my skateboard back from Felix today.. Funny thing is, as i was going to school today, I really hesitated on riding it to school. I think I might have grown to care about what people think. Actually, I have always cared, just that well, maybe age is catching up.. and people my age are just inevitably more judgemental on people's actions. I really hate this fact, because, I'm not gonna be shit and say I don't care about how I look and all, but still, I love riding my skateboard, and well, I can't change the fact that people are still gonna judge no matter what. don't give a shit? well, maybe it's just that i've tried to move away from being anti-social, and tried harder to gain acceptance from friends And, being the person I was made it hard for friends to know me better. I can't change the way I look, but I can change the way I act.. and so, should I be me or grow and be a new me with a little more friends? I know some people will say true friends will accept you for who you are.. no matter what. I totally agree, no doubt, but well, how about when you are making new friends? What if being the old me restricts from building good friendships because naturally people generally don't have time or effort to build friendships, unless you can socially ease in.. I don't know where I am going with this, but being a person who is passionate about living life to the fullest, I know close friends play a big part in that, and that part of me is still pretty empty. But don't get me wrong, I am pretty much very happy with life, albeit, i will be trying to and i appreciate everyday and the things I have.. it's just that grey area of my social life i need working on. Sorry but i'm not a natural.. thanks for understanding. ; p