Organize

That's what the number one thing I need to do before I stop complaining about how many things I cannot finish doing.

I am desperate for inspiration. It's been ages since I've tickled my mind or received a standing ovation from the hairs on my arms... I need time to reflect. It's funny.. I've got things to do.. but yet I need things to do. Those things. I need challenges instead of doing the mundane. I really wish to get out of here. Another 2 years. I need to learn to wait. Sometimes, I feel as if i've grown up. But maybe I don't want to grow up. Maybe, I just want to be selfish and think about myself and just do the things I want to do. I feel obligated. I feel a sense of responsibility to be here. My conscience definitely placed a large part in my choice of staying here and helping out with the business.

I envy you. You, who are still studying. You, who are still earning enough just to spend on your next roadtrip. You, who are doing the things you love without having the need to think about money. You, who have freedom.