Back in Xin Jia Po

Yes, I'm finally back from a week of short respite in all-time-favourite Melbourne. Time seems to fly when you are having so much fun.

I'm back and I'm not sure if I'm ready to stand up to all these challanges ahead of me. I have to try to be all positive and self-motivating again.

I've refused to move on from my "Uni Life" ever since I graduated. Couldn't settle in to the working 9-7 life. Especially now when SD is not here with me. Everyday seems such a pain to pass. Finding Social life seems so difficult. I really tried. I did. The smses, the msns, the drinks, but everyone seems so caught up with work or something or, I don't know, life really feels so empty. Lonely.

I read entries just one year ago. It didn't seem that long ago, but I was so carefree then. So motivated, almost passionate. Every day just doing the things I love. Now, taking life one day at a time seems so meaningless.

And tommorow kisses my freelance days into sweet vapour, clenching every muscle on my head to face the worries/burden of a family business ahead.

Without friends or my love one beside me, I wonder if I could stand against the storm alone.